Monday, September 18, 2006
Well we're sitting on our couch at home after a fairly eventful weekend. Friday night after celebrating my dad's birthday at my parent's house Ramona had a fever, and we headed straight to st. b. Ramona spent the night in emerge with everything relatively under control but on some pretty intense antibiotics. Saturday was a day of waiting for the oncologist in emerge...at around 4 o'clock they discharged Ramona...and at relatively the same time Ramona started feeling a little worse...we weren't even sure we should bother coming home, but we did.....on Sunday afternoon while I was playing hockey in Gimli with the boys...Ramona had a fever again and her parents took her to st. boniface...by midnight they discharged her and we went to the Norwood hotel expecting a blood transfusion this morning...for those of you interested in numbers...on Friday Ramona's white blood count was 0.4 and by Sunday night it was 1.3...non-chemo humans would have numbers ranging from 4.5 to 11...anyway...the transfusion didn't happen today...but we're expecting it to happen tomorrow morning in Arborg.....in many ways it feels like the spiritual battle is increasing...this is fully into chemo with all the pains and side effects...the novelty of excitedly becoming healthy is different when there is such a realization that the chemicals will be flowing in again right away bringing in a fresh wave of pain.....on a slightly different note...when Mony and I write our book when we're 90 years old...it will have a few really long chapters about relationships with family/friends/each other/strangers/medical professionals/and God....but i'm not 90 yet...i'll quit writing...earl
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Hey Guys
Can't believe I made it on as the first to comment. Yay for me. ;) Anyway, I can see how it's almost harder to be sick now after the highs from last week. I'm still totally praying for you guys and thinking about you a lot. Even though you're not there yet, the cancer road does have an end, you know. Keep going nuts, or at least keep going. You're being carried.
"I love you, but Jesus loves you best"
Love and prayers
Joanna
i sit here w/ tears threatening to spill. but i don't know if i'll let them b/c i might not stop... i was already in bed, but just felt this urge to come check my email (which always also means a quick check of your blog) i'm so glad i did, b/c tonight while i lay in bed not being able to sleep i will pray and pray and pray...
it seems so hard, so awful, so wrong that you're sick again mony and that you can't be in morweena enjoying life as much as is possible. it seems so very wrong that i left you on friday afternoon and just hours later you were off to the hospital. i hate this! i do...
at first, when we first foudn out about your cancer- i saw so much good, saw so much growth in me and in others and saw how god was using you and your cancer... but tonight maybe my vision's a little clouded. tonight i just think of how much i hate that you're sick and how much i wish it was possible for me to switch places... maybe i shouldn't publish this, while i'm so overwhelmed, but somehow i can't not publish it.. i don't know how to explain it
i just remembered this verse: "in this world you will have trouble, but i give you my peace that where i am there you will also be"
i think this qualifies as trouble... for all of us, on many different levels. there are so many who care, some who've never even met you and we're hurting and crying and hoping and praying for you.
know that...
i say i'm overwhelmed, but i'm also overwhelmed w/ god's presence right now and i look forward to the peace the song talks about... for all of us...
if you're reading this and you don't know Christ (i mean really, truly personally) or maybe you're reading this and you do know him but you feel parched... i encourage you. no- i beg of you... ask him. ask god to be there for you. to hold you. to love you. to be your daddy... ask him to carry you along... he's waiting, just longing to hear you ask...
i can't say that i understand all of this, all of life. there's too much. tonight i especially don't understand cancer... you know that from what i just wrote- but i think i'm beginning to understand God's heart a little better... (maybe this is the only thing that he wnats me/us to understand)
i love ramona and seeing her sick breaks my heart. but then i think of God and how he planned to form her and how, in his timing, she was born and how over the past years he's made her into this phenomenal woman and how he smiled as she and earl got married... think about how his heart must break for her right now, think about his huge amount of love for her... he loves her w/ an everlasting love... and my dear blogger friends, he loves you w/ that same amount of love. he planned to create you b/c he wants a friendship w/ you... remember that... when you think of ramona and when you pray for her, don't think that God has forgotten her. no! remember how very much God loves her and then remember how very much he loves you...
he's waiting...
Roland and I are praying for you guys. I check the blog alot and as you deal with the spiritual battles, know that we'll be praying for God's awesome power to work. It's neat to know that He's experienced in that particular area!, even though we might feel weak.
May you feel His love always.
Jen (Karlene's sister)
Earl and Ramona,
So sorry to hear about the fever and the need for another transfusion. This should be a reminder to everyone to donate blood as often as possible. People like Ramona need it! Keep fighting, Ramona. I know it probably seems like this is a road that will never end, but I tell you the truth, there is light at the end of this tunnel!
Once again, I am truly amazed by the comments posted on this blog. Dayna, you have such a heart for God. I think you summed up what Earl and Ramona have been saying all along. Thank you for that last paragraph, I know that many will read and make a decision because of your words mixed with God's gentle nudge!
Thank you all for your comments. I can't speak for Earl and Ramona, but I'm sure learning a lot about God's love for all His children! He cares so much for each and every one of us - Hallelujah!
Take care Earl and Ramona...
Take care all bloggers...
Love and Prayers to you all,
Michele (Jobina's sister)
Ramona and Earl,
Today when I read this verse, I thought of you. . .
" AND THE GOD OF ALL GRACE, WHO CALLED YOU TO HIS ETERNAL GLORY IN CHRIST, AFTER YOU HAVE SUFFERED A LITTLE WHILE, WILL HIMSELF RESTORE YOU AND MAKE YOU STRONG, FIRM AND STEADFAST. TO HIM BE THE POWER FOR EVER AND EVER. AMEN."
(I Peter 5: 10-11)
I know this suffering seems a little longer than "A LITTLE WHILE", nevertheless, God knows how to make exhausted warriors, strong, firm and steadfast!
Many prayers for you,
Love Auntie Gloria.
ok, ramona... now i'm crying. i feel like i must be an overwhelming friend. i write long novels instead of short posts and i cry and... well, there must be lots of other reasons...
i love you. that's pretty much all i want to say tonight. oh, and i'm still looking forward to lunch in fisher branch!
always,
dayna
Hi Ramona,
You're in my daily prayers and I check the blog each morning. I am praying you will be healed and that your suffering is minimal. I am so thankful you have such truly wonderful people in your life who support, love, and want only the best for you. I especially wanted to thank Dayna for her blog. It was truly a gift to read it... Ramona, I just wanted you to know that sharing your journey through this is having an impact on my life in many ways. I just wanted you to know how much I care about what you're going through and how much I want you to be well.
Kristie K.
Sure feel for both of you and continue to pray for grace for each day.... could you write the book any earlier? By the time you're 90 it may be too late for me.... Hang on to the faithfulness of God, Auntie Jan
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